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When life sucks…it really sucks. Normally, I’m a pretty positive person, at least I like to think I can find the brighter side of things. But I just can’t anymore. I’ve been having some car issues, and that is a pretty big thing for me since I drive 2 hours a day back and forth to work. I bought a Jeep Grand Cherokee, thinking that for once in my life I was going to get a car I actually wanted. I was really happy with it. Then small things start happening, and of course when you bring it to the dealership they can’t find anything wrong with it. About 6 months ago, the door locks and windows stopped working. Not really a critical thing since it was winter and I don’t really need to unroll the windows, plus it would cost over 500 to get it fixed, so I of course put it off. Then, last week, I took it in and spent 1500 getting shocks, brakes, and repair work that was needed. Still, it needed about 1000 more worth of work to get it in top shape. I had a list and I was going to do it all bit by bit. I’m sooo not made of money. Then, this morning, I was driving along to work, just entering the pass (a stretch of road cut out of the mountain surrounded by ravines and boulders) when I decided that 4 full-time was no longer necessary on this gorgeous day. No need to waste precious fuel. So, I put it in 2 wheel. Something felt very wrong. My car started making a scary grinding noise and I thought, holy shit, and tried to put it back into 4 full-time. It didn’t work, the grinding got worse and there is absolutely no where to pull over while driving through the pass, so I slowed down as much as I could and as I was coming out of the pass a horrible clunking noise came from my front end and smoke was everywhere. I pulled over as soon as I could and turned off my car. Smoke was billowing around the car. It was horrible. I called Midas, the last people to work on the car and they sent out a tow truck. It was all very quick and efficient. When I got to Midas, they pulled apart the front end and showed me the most nasty, oily, ground up shit I’ve ever seen on a car. My front differential was completely shot. I tried to keep from crying; knowing that I can’t afford whatever this is going to cost. About 1/2 hour later my friend Nancy came to get me and Jon at Midas told me what it would cost me. It’s one of those, if it doesn’t get fixed, it’s just a lawn ornament, things. 4,240.39. What does this mean? It means I’m fucked. I really wanted to go to my Nieces’ wedding next month since I haven’t seen my family, including my grandmother in many years. I was trying really hard to figure out where I could come up with the 800 I needed for that. It would have been an opportunity to smooth things over with my mother whom I haven’t spoken to in almost 3 years and my son would get to see everyone. This sucks, this fucking sucks. I guess the bright side is that the car didn’t lock up while I was driving and throw me into the mountainside or into a ravine. Honestly, other than that, I’m having real trouble finding happiness in my life right now. This really sucks.

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