I don’t think anyone wakes up in the morning and expects their life to change in some dramatic way. Well, maybe I do, but I don’t think there are many others out there that feel that way. I’ve lived in chaos most of my life. Some is self-inflicted and most is inflicted upon me. I’m not complaining. I wouldn’t have it any other way.
It’s just that I’ve always been one of those “hopers”. You know, those incessant people that try to always hope for the best, try to see the positive side of a situation, that sort of thing. I do sometimes get pessimistic, but it doesn’t last very long. I guess what I am trying to say is that it’s quite devastating when something you hope for, something you wish for and truly believe in is a myth. No matter what you do, or say, what you are hoping for will never, ever happen and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it. Because inevitably, when what you are hoping for is true love, you are bound to be disappointed.
This girl – this girl who has lived with the indestructible illusion that true love exists, has been sadly and unquestioningly let down by the one person that she thought could prove that true love is possible. Funny how something as simple as love can bring hope to its knees.
So, to all those in my life who told me true love is an illusion, a childish dream — you have won. Claim your prize.
7 Comments
April 20, 2009 at 6:03 pm
i’m sorry.
April 20, 2009 at 8:52 pm
im sorry. but i understand. cant wait to see you!
April 21, 2009 at 12:20 pm
I respectfully disagree! True love is not dead and for all you romantic hopefuls keep on hoping because it does indeed exist! I submit love cannot be known as “True” until it has been tried. It is not always at our choosing that this occurs, but believe me it does occur. Then and only then can it be considered “True Love”. People, situations & circumstances can’t always be perfect or ideal. How we adapt to the people we love and persevere through our trials is what counts. Oh, and a word to anyone thinking of claiming a “prize”, you better pack a lunch because it will be a cold day in hell before you claim mine! Love you baby.
April 21, 2009 at 2:56 pm
Well. True love may just prevail after all…..
July 19, 2009 at 7:28 pm
If it is love being received that is judged true or not, then it is up to someone else to prove its existence. If it is love being given, then it is up to you to prove it exists.
September 11, 2009 at 8:52 am
I just experienced what your saying last night. So sad for me! I believed in love at first sight, soul mates, true love and all that crap. My bubble was burst! Guys!!!!!!!!!
September 11, 2009 at 12:57 pm
TexasMom…get out the patch kit. The bubble is worth mending and breathing life into once again. There I go, consistently hopeful and still believing that true love always wins in the end.